It seems I took a longer blogging break than I anticipated. We had the most fabulous break needless to say. Having the kiddos and the Mr (mostly) home with me for even a bit thoroughly did this mama some good. If you have been around awhile you know the last few years I have picked a word that I dwell on and try to encompass in every way over a years span. In years past I have used simplicity twice and gratitude. This year I find "PURPOSE" being a good word. I must admit once both kiddos went to school I have been a bit at a loss. I have been exercising many of my creative outlets with the shop, photography, decorating, and I could go on and on, but not a one feels like a solid foundation. I feel scattered. I married a couple a months out of college, became pregnant 3 months later and ever since have found my identity in being a mother. It is who I am and what I enjoy even though I may not be the best at it. I look at both Ellie and KJ and am astonished that God entrusted me with them, the two most amazing beings. I also am well aware that I am still one and will forever be, but my role is changing. Although I am still a main character in their lives I have become one of many. They are becoming their own person and I serve as more of a guide rather than their soul source. All this to say it has been hard on me even though this is the way life is suppose to go. Eleven years ago today I dedicated my life to God. I was in the darkest time of my life and He saved me. I knew then I wasn't suppose to go through life just "living", but with PURPOSE. This is the year that I find my new PURPOSE whatever that may be. To stop dabbling and what feels to me like floating which for my type personality does me no good. I feel like my mind is everywhere and I am continually missing/forgetting important things and honestly not doing life well. Even if I do find that many of my dabbling's are PURPOSE filled I want to do them well, organized, and with all my heart. I want/need to be God led. I need PURPOSE and I am determined to make it happen in this new season of life. Our church at the start of every year goes through 21 days of fasting and prayer. Lives are changed during this 21 days. This 21 days I am praying to become more aligned with God's PURPOSE for me. Join us if you like online. 2013 you shall be a good year.
Many plans are in a man’s mind, but it is the Lord’s purpose for him that will stand.
Proverbs 19:21
What word would describe this year for you? Do you have one?
*Enough for deep thoughts, tomorrow I will return with the prettiness of life.
